interesting people

I wonder if something like this has ever happened to you guys..something very disappointing.

Beware when you meet this kind of people: they stand out, they look like they have an interesting personality, seems like so many great things are happening in their lives, and most importantly, there’s just a mysterious aura around them that makes you want to know more, and more about them, and possibly, be part of their lives.

Yea- beware. Don’t waste...or to sound better, spend too much time trying to get to know them, because you might be disappointed. at least that’s what i’ve been experiencing with these “interesting people”.

do u feel it when people want to be something that they are not? they usually have a few groups of friends, but not necessary that they are close with each, or any, of the groups. There’s always a group of party animals; people that are extremely extrovert, sociable, and are wasted all the freaking time - this is the group of friends that they always want to hang out with, and want other people to think that they are part of. Another group would be friends from a long time ago, perhaps elementary school friends; ones that make them feel the less abstract presence of their history. And there’s the most important group..but note that only the people in this group can see its importance, but to the interesting people, this group is not who they want to be around most of the time, but their superego knows that they need this group of conscious, down-to-the-earth friends. That’s it-this group of friends is composed of people that are realists, who have a healthy and upright lifestyle, who think deeper, and most significantly, they make these interesting people feel interesting; their self-monitoring works with these people because they are able to make this group of friends think what they want them to think of them. hope that wasn’t too confusing. but that’s just the interesting people’s delusion, because their conscious group of friends are obviously more awake than they are. So i guess i am part of my “interesting” friends’ conscious group of friends, because i feel like i know them too well that it’s kinda disgusting. Worse off, i can feel that they are using me to make themselves feel better about themselves, make them stay sane, allow them to find the better part of themselves because they are around this group of people that know what they want and what they are doing. It’s double the benefits for these interesting people when they are friends with conscious people: firstly, they think that their self-monitoring is working when the truth is that, their friends know better than them of how they are really like. they feel better about themselves; they probably feel inferior compared to their group of party animal friends, but compared to these conscious people, they feel as though they have a more tripping life, in their perspective. Secondly, they are able to feel the conscious part of themselves; being with this group of people is like going to church: no matter what they do outside, they are forgiven and pure, they are able to confess to themselves, and find the better part of themselves in these people, while doing something more fulfilling than passing out at a party.
it is very, very disappointing. because at first when i really wanted to know them, and the more i know them, the less complicated they become. and by knowing them i mean in a very real way, like listening to their inner feelings instead of making assumptions myself. it’s to the point that they are transparent, i can see through them. it is very sad at the same time, because i don’t only lose interest in them, i lose quite an amount of respect.. not just because they are using me to feel more “normal”, but the fact that they want to be so much, too much that they don’t realize how they are never gonna be that something else, because they have created this blur, this tangled mess of wants, to the point that they become what people call “multi-face”. every time i spend time with them, the level of intrigue goes down by a bit.

yes maybe dressing up will get you the attention, but when people get to know you, you’re just disappointing them, and how you look and how you portray yourself won’t do anything because eventually, they know you better than you know yourself.