run free

“But I see what the trouble is: I keep drifting towards that error because my mind likes to wander freely, refusing to respect the boundaries that truth lays down. Very well, then; I shall let it run free for a while, so that when the time comes to rein it in it won’t be so resistant to being pulled back.”

We don’t realize how many things originate from what we consider philosophical abstracts. They are not just mad men’s words or theories in lack of conclusions or so-called solutions, but entrances to imagination and wonder.
Having gone to several Epistemology classes, I’m not going to be silly and say that we have a lot of knowledge or certainty about worldly things, but I say that we assume a lot, and i mean, a lot a lot.
Hume claims this: we, as humans, derive the “knowledge” of cause and effect from constant conjunction of things. In other words, we don’t really know what causes the effects, we only see things happening in a pattern of subsequences.

Due to social constructs, responsibilities, parents, reputation, and just people... we often see ourselves strangled in a position where we feel contradiction because what we might feel does not match with what we “should” feel. We carry the baggage of guilt but simultaneously put on some sort of disguise to survive. Now, how many people truly know if how they feel or what they do is naturally and purely what they feel and what they want to do, but not a practiced response?
Don’t panic, I am not looking for an answer.
But I do have a suggestion: how about just let your unconscious take you and feel what you feel, do what you do.
For once, let your mind run completely free;
fuck the rules,
shut out your ears from listening to what they are saying,
and just live your life.
Forget all the should’s and should-not’s, you don’t have to feel sad, you don’t have to feel bad, you don’t have to go through that mandatory breakdown. For the sake of cliche routine, sometimes it’s just overdue and only necessary because we think it is necessary.
There is this thing that our magical unconsciousness does, it’s called deliberation-without-awareness. Apparently, when we are faced with difficult things to deal with, and we push them to the back of our minds in order to not get stressed out over them, our unconsciousness is dealing with them when we consciously aren’t. So after a while, we might be able to produce a calm decision, or even come to receiving an epiphany.
It’s not selfish, it’s a humane and sinful way of coping.

This probably sounds so vague and incomprehensible at the moment, but when you finally come down to a point where you no longer even pay attention to how you are dealing with some things, that might be when you realize you’ve been running free for a while already. You discover how good it feels, and how silly you have been.