What about honesty

Such a small thing, yet it brings out so much reflection.

Do you believe there are people in the world who are chosen to speak the truth? White lies are so popular; they are easy to tell, almost reflexive, and smooth. What’s more, flattering, easygoing, useful, and recoupable—as in regain of benefits in the future.
So how can the people who speak the truth survive? They survive by living on their righteousness and honesty with themselves. I guess when one is able to speak the truth that no one dares or bothers to tell, he is sacrificing quite a lot. Rumors, varied opinions, talk-backs, change of impression or reputation etc etc. That “quite a lot,” I assume, at the end means friends. There are incidents like standing up for a friend where you speak the truth to the person who disrespects your friend, and to basically fuck off; trade off is a request of apology to what that person would call a “random spaz”, any relationship you have with that person, and disappointment in the friend who you stand up for because you get no support from this “friend” whatsoever. So that’s a loss of 2 friends or more net, just from standing up for somebody else.

Note: i’m not spazzing, at all. and this is not sarcasm.

Okay more incidents like, having an opinion about a friend of yours, and learning from your past experience with this friend which gives you negative opinion about him/her. If you are a rather stubborn person, you won’t be able to really interact with this person for longer than 5 minutes, and so there you go another friend.

Everyone might praise you for your bravery, your honesty, to be able to take on the role of speaking the truth that no one else would offer to sacrifice. But when there is this day when you have to go through your list of contacts to find someone to just go somewhere with, and you can’t find anyone else beside those 2 or 3 closer friends that are not free that day, all you have left is your list of friends that you have decided not to talk to because of your disagreement with their personality or ways of doing things. What you’re holding onto is that sparks of bravery and courage of yours, and the righteousness, comfort, and honesty you gain with yourself. Because the truth is ugly; no one, honestly, no one likes to hear negative comments about themselves, unless your unspoken thoughts of truth are like the yummy cheesecake filling hidden in Big City Cupcakes.

It’s a free world; there is determinism like how one’s personality is affected by some genes and environmental factors..but there is also free will, which you can take control over and decide what things to say. One got to have some self-control, and that is what I’m telling myself. At the same time, there is also a trade-off for not being honest with yourself or others, or even when you just don’t take sides: mere dishonesty and lack of satisfaction—something that one would not understand until he nails down some form of opinion. I don’t believe there to be a grey area, where one is honest with himself and also who does not say anything negative; that is just plainly letting your soul float around with no grounds.